Mine and Ben's story starts long before May 14, 2014. At the end of my eighth grade year, my parents no longer wanted to homeschool me. They looked around at schools ( not taking any public schools into consideration ) and Brentwood came up, a private and Christian based school. I started the registration and interview and got accepted into the 2012-2013 school year. I began the following year at the school. Being the new girl ( not many new people came in every year ) I got a lot of attention,from the guys especially. I ignored them except a lot of them kept mentioning the name Ben. Since I was new I didn't know who Ben was until someone pointed him out to me. After being pointed out I knew him as the shy kid who constantly stared at me. People continued mentioning him to me and encouraging me to go talk to him. But me myself also being shy didn't go talk to him. Until one night we both happened to be at a Quinceneria and he caught my attention. Everyone was telling me to ask him to dance but once again my shyness became a barrier although I did want to dance with him, therefore I purposely went and placed my stuff beside him and kept walking past him hoping he'd ask me but with all my effort we didn't dance nor talked that night. The following few days I became more and more interested and let my friend Chris in into my interest. She had a very outgoing personality and was a mutual friend of both of us, she's the one who got us to talk. We constantly talked although it was difficult since I didn't have a phone we were forced to email. We never really talked at school if anything it was a maximum of 3 minutes. We talked for a good 2 weeks then it was Valentines. Ben had made it obvious that he was going to get me something by asking what were my favorite flowers. Valentines Day fell on a weekday that year meaning it was during school. I was running late that day but as soon as I walked in a bunch of Ben's friends told me to hurry over to my locker, I already knew what was waiting for me. When I turned the corner I saw Ben standing at my locker, I had no idea what to do and tried to act dumb as if I didn't see him although there was like 5 people in the hall. When I got to my locker we both had an awkward greeting he handed me a cup which was filled with white roses and had duck tape criss crossed over the top to not let the flowers fall, chocolate and small teddy bear all he said was this is for you and I responded with thank you and a hug. He walked off with Chris patting his back telling him good job. Till this day I laugh, you could see the fear and nervousness in him. Anyways the following weeks we kept talking through email then spring break came along. After returning back to school after the break we quit talking. I honestly thought we were done and simply just a part of each other's past. Then sophomore year ( for me ) came along. My sophomore year was the best and worst year ever. I was at one of my all time lows and Ben came to mind. I remember how sweet he was and how we just stopped talking ( reasons him and me will only know ) and I wanted to talk to him and apologize for how everything went suddenly stopped. The guilt was killing me but yet once again my shyness came in the way, I couldn't bring myself to talk to him. Therefor once again I brought a mutual friend into the picture, Logan. I explained to Logan how I felt and I couldn't talk to him so he gave my number to Ben and the next day he texted me! Something about us just clicked. We were able to talk to each other about anything and everything and had so many heart to heart conversations. Our past "thing" was brought up and we both realized what it was that occurred. We started talking on April 7th, 2014 and on May 15, 2015 I asked him to be my boyfriend. We started started dating a week and a half before summer got out. During the summer it seemed as if everything was against us when it came to planning dates but finally on June 18th we had our first date which was at the outlets and movie's to watch the " The Fault in our Stars", it was also the same day that we first held hands. Anyways throughout the summer I'm sure we'd both admit that it was difficult to keep our relationship alive. Eventually the 2014-2015 school year rolled along. It was truly amazing! We spent every second of almost everyday together it was as if we were attached at the hips. We'd been dating for 5 months when we found out I was pregnant. Fear and unknowing of what was going to happen filled us both. Due to the school that we were attending was private but also Christian we were forced to leave. We started at two different schools which again put our relationship to a hard test but we managed to pull through.
Current day, these next few weeks will be ones that I will always cherish being they are our last together just us before our baby is born. Our relationship isn't perfect and I'll admit we've hit some hard spots. But what relationship is perfect? There's no such thing as a perfect couple or a perfect relationship and we've learned to accept that and over come the challenges together. I can't wait to see where our life takes us and how this new chapter of our lives will unfold with our baby. I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that there's going to be a person on this earth that's half of me and half of Ben that represents our love for each other. It's amazing the way God plans things out and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, although at times the reason stays unknown temporarily or forever there is a meaning.
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